I really want a boyfriend...

I really want a boyfriend. I know you all are probably going to say 'you do not want one' or 'have you not had one?' I have never had a boyfriend and I really want one and I will tell you the reasons. 1) I need someone to care about me, and I want to know that someone is always there for me. My family and friends doesn't provide it so I need it. I need it so desperately that I will suffer if I don't get it. I am not rich and I have got lots of things I want but never will get it. I want to grow up quickly and earn money to spend. I need a boyfriend, and that's all I want. Someone who understand me and care about me.

Lily

#2 Dear Luisa...

Dear Luisa, (made this up)

I know you are jealous of me being 'good' at everything. But I just want to tell you, I really am not that good as you think I am. You are much better than me. I am totally useless and I am a total failure. I can't do anything to please anyone. No one cares about me, really, no one. You have a wonderful boyfriend and I am jealous of that. I have never had a relationship before and I really want one but I am not allowed one. I hope you understand that I am really not that good.

Lily

#1 Dear Ian...

Dear Ian (this is not the real name, of course, I wouldn't put it out),

I have no idea what I have done to make the embarrassing and awkwardness we have now. I have never talked to you much and I don't know why we can't talk anymore. Seeing you in school now makes me feel lonely and it makes me feel like that I am rubbish at everything. Okay, fine, I am going to admit that I have had a crush on you the first time I met you. You were so helpful and kind to me. I remember that very vividly. In my first year in school, you would always smile and nod to me when we met, it always made my day. Once, you came up to me in the school dining hall and my friend said that I was as red as a tomato. In my second year in school, you started my year with a hug with another girl in front of me. I felt hopeless and useless, I couldn't do anything. I was filled with jealousy and anger. How dare you do it in front of me? I cried and cried that week. I swore that I would never fancy you again. And I never did. When we met in school, you always gave me the cold look that I never appreciated. I can't wait for you to leave school. Anyway, after all those sad memories, I want to say thank you for caring for me in the first year. I will always think of you, but never fancy you.

Lily

Christmas Wishlist 2016!

Hiya! It's me again! Christmas is almost here! Yay! Christmas=family & friends, food, presents!!!!!!

My Christmas Wishlist 2016:

1) Arthur Rubinstein's book-<<My Young Years>> & <<My Many Years>>
2) A CD Rom
3) Lots of CDs and DVDs of course
4) An Umbrella
5) More Clothes
6) Post-it notes
7) Notebooks
8) A Laptop Cover
9) Skincare products
10) Makeup

Let me know what your christmas wishlist for this year is down below in the comments! Lovely to see y'all! xxx

Girl Online
Lily

Monday tomorrow?!

Monday tomorrow?! The weekend has passed so quickly! I have no idea what I have been doing! Maybe some practice and some revision... Oh wow... Time is running and it is not waiting for me! Ooops! Tomorrow is Monday which means there is school tomorrow! Yay! Oh no...please... Let's see what I have got tomorrow... Assembly...Maths...Games...Practice...French...Tutor Group... It's alright I suppose... Oh well, it has to come at some point anyway... Who should I go to breakfast with tomorrow? Hmm...Phoebe? Abbie? Jess? Should I ask them? Or should I just go on my own? You see, I always have to plan who I am going to have meals with the day before because I hate sitting on my own! It is horrible! If you are one of those people who doesn't have anyone to eat with, don't worry, me too. It sucks, I know... Well, hopefully, we will get some real friends :) Right now, I am listening to one of my favorite music---Tchaikovsky Symphony No.5! Go check it out! Wahoo! Well, I am going now, can't wait for tomorrow. I hope y'all will have a nice time in school/work!

Girl Online, going offline... xxx
Lily

Hello, World!

I've decided to start a blog.

This blog.

Why , you might ask?

You know when you a shake a Coke can and then you open it and it explode everyone? Well, that's how I feel right now. I have so many things I want to say fizzing up inside of me, but I don't have the confidence to say them out loud.

My dad once told me that I should start writing a diary. He said that keeping a diary is a great way of expressing our innermost thoughts. He also said it would be great to look back on when I was old and that is would 'really make me appreciate my teenage years'. Hmm, il's obviously been so long since he was a teenager he's forgotten what it's actually like.

I did try, though - writing a diary. I managed about three entries before I gave up. Most of them went something like this:

Rained today; my new shoes got ruined. Jenny contemplated skipping maths. She didn't. John Barry got a nosebleed in science because he poked a pencil up there. I laughed at him. He wasn't impressed. It was awkward. 'Night. 

Not exactly Bridget Jones, right? More like 'can't be bothered'.

The thought of writing stuff to myself in a diary seems a bit pointless, really.

I want to feel like someone, somewhere, will be able to read what I've got to say.

That's why I've decided to give this blog a go - so that I have somewhere I can say exactly what I want, when I want and how I want - to someone. And not have to worry that what I say won't sound cool or will make me look stupid or lose my friends.

That's why this blog is anonymous.

I'm going to say what I want to say, and it would be really cool if (whoever you might be) join me.

OK, well I guess that's all for now. Thank you for reading (if anyone actually as been reading!). And let me know what you think in the comments below.

Girl Online, going offline xxx

Lily